Embarrassed myself so much.
I’m a twat.
I just want the sadness to go away. I’m hoping that in a few weeks or so…we could be friends perhaps…. i’m not going to hold onto false hope tho.
June 2013
9 posts
I can’t cry any more, I can’t let myself weaken again.
I try my best to be strong but I can’t, and it hurts, and all I keep thinking is I cried to my friend saying all I wanted was a blade, and yeah, after all this time, that’s all it ever goes back to.
I don’t even know what hurts the most, the way he did it, the little care he has, the fact he doesn’t love me any more, the fact he has time to talk to other girls but when i tried he’d yell at me. I tried so hard, and now it’s gone and all these old feelings have come rushing back, I’ve tried putting them off for months, tried telling myself that it’s not me, i’m better now, I don’t think about them things, but now if feels like there isn’t anything and all I want to do is die, i just want to go, and forget everything and not hurt, and be sad and anxious and scared and all the other shit. I sound pathetic, and no one will read this, or if they do they won’t give a shit, why should they?
May 2013
23 posts
It sounds so sad, but i just want a big ass cuddle right now, and for someone to kiss me on the forehead and tell me everything will be okay…then help me sort everything out.
